Ruined. Ruined MC Series, #1

I'm fifty shades of screwed up. I love too hard and too much, and my love? It's destructive. Joey found me at one of the lowest points of my life, right when I was ready to give it all up, and he saved me. He taught me how to breathe when I felt like my lungs no longer worked. But the cause of my downfall, Tristan, is back, and he's tearing through my life like a tornado. I miss him, but I can't breathe when he's near.
I'm drowning all over again. Tristan doesn't know who I am anymore. He still loves the innocent, naive girl I used to be. But she's dead because Joey killed her when he gave me a purpose. My life is imploding around me. My ground is shaky at best, and before long, an earthquake is splitting my world in half. I'm lost. Untethered. Broken.????????????. When I'm attacked and left for dead, there's only one man I know I can call that won't make everything worse.
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