Loss. Phantom Bastards MC: 2nd Generation, #1

Alex 'Vault' StoneGrief makes you do things you wouldn't normally do. For me, I chose to push everyone who ever cared about me away. My twin, the club I grew up in, and the girl I loved and wanted in my life. My days were full of nothing but drowning out the pain to become numb so I didn't have to think about the horrible hole left in my life. A hole nothing will ever fill because the person who created it meant more to me in the world than anyone else ever did before.
At least until I met my angel. My savior. I'm starting life over and choosing a different path for myself than the one I've envisioned for so long. In doing so, I know I'm not only going to continue hurting the girl I love, but I'll finally push her away for good. There's no way she'll ever let me back in after everything I've done to her. Annabell CarsonI've mourned my family and grown as a person.
I'm still not who I want to be yet, but I've made a ton of progress over the years. Unlike some people I know, I've embraced the Phantom Bastards and accepted the help, love, and support they've offered me since the night I went through the most traumatic experience of my life. I had my person, the man I fell in love with until he was struck with his own tragedy. It's time for me to forget the man I've loved for years and move on with my life.
Even when I try, I can't actually go through with it though. There's only one man for me and now he's never going to come back to Benton Falls again. He's living his own life in a new town and it's what he needs, so I'll always support his decision to leave the past behind.