You Wanted This

If you had sat me down and asked me a few weeks ago, I would have told you straight. Katie and me had a great marriage. We'd made a really happy home over the last few years. We were just a very average married couple in our thirties. Like I said, we're just a normal couple, well, we were! And then something changed. Something happened. I won't bore you with all the details for now, but trust me when I say the first time I watched my wife's fingers wrapped around him, I almost passed out, the feelings were so powerful. I felt inadequate because he was so much thicker than me. I felt disgusted because I knew I was watching my wife, and she really shouldn't be doing that. I felt like a total failure because I should have been the one to get her that excited. And worst of all, as I stood and watched, I was more turned on than ever before. I was standing in our bedroom, so disgusted with what I was watching that I felt like I was about to puke, but I couldn't hide from the fact I was rock hard. And then, as she opened her lips, instead of yelling, stop, all I could think was, 'Katie hasn't done that to me in longer than I can remember.' And then there was the real elephant in the room.
This was actually my idea. This had been my fantasy. I had brought this entirely upon myself.