The Big Horrible. The Big Horrible, #1

The Big Horrible follows Molly as she tries to rebuild her life after devastating loss, anxiety, and the feeling that something inside her has gone terribly wrong. Starting over at college was supposed to be a fresh beginning. Instead, Molly finds herself overwhelmed by grief, uncertainty, and a mind that rarely slows down long enough to let her breathe. Then she meets Shawn. Patient, grounded, and far more perceptive than she expects, Shawn slowly becomes both a safe place and a challenge.
As their relationship deepens, Molly begins to discover that love is not always soft and easy. Sometimes it is structure. Sometimes it is accountability. Sometimes it is being seen clearly, even when she would rather hide. As Molly struggles with anxiety, old wounds, and the constant presence she calls The Big Horrible, she begins to learn that healing does not happen all at once. It happens in choices.
In trust. In allowing herself to need other people. This first book in The Big Horrible trilogy explores grief, emotional healing, chosen family, consensual power exchange, and the messy process of rebuilding a life after everything changes.