Fuckboy A Memoir

This is a true story. Not based on one. This happened. I was born into Hollywood, but not the version you see on screen. I grew up around fame, private parties, closed door gatherings, and power circles that operated quietly behind the scenes. Conversations stopped when kids walked into the room. My grandparents were in films. Image mattered. Reputation mattered. Silence mattered more. Think Euphoria meets Jerry Springer.
Now remove the cameras. Remove the script. Leave the consequences. Before I was old enough to understand influence, I understood dysfunction. Before I understood love, I understood chaos. I grew up watching adults navigate private alliances, whispered loyalty, and environments that felt larger than life but offered very little protection. By eight years old, I was riding through Skid Row with a recovering heroin addict who would become the first man who ever stayed.
By my teens, instability felt normal. By my twenties, self destruction felt like passion. Fuckboy is a raw memoir about growing up around Hollywood culture and then repeating the very patterns you swore you would escape. This is a story about: Growing up close to fame without being protected by itPrivate power circles that blurred boundaries and normalized instabilityMental illness and heroin recovery inside the homeLearning to perform before learning to feelToxic relationships built on trauma bonding and obsessionSex, betrayal, ego, and emotional collapsePTSD, anxiety, and depression that never fully leftChasing broken people to feel worthySingle fatherhood and building stability from nothingAyahuasca ceremonies, ego death, and confronting inherited darknessFaith, doubt, and spiritual reckoningChoosing peace after decades of noise This book does not glamorize chaos.
It dissects it. It is about loving people who choose chaos over safety. It is about being steady and still not being chosen. It is about realizing you were never chasing love. You were chasing redemption. Dark. Cinematic. Intimate. Unfiltered. If you have ever confused trauma with passion, if you have ever tried to outrun what shaped you, if you have ever had to rebuild yourself from the inside out, this story will hit. Available in paperback, hardcover, and ebook.