Being Me

BenFor over a decade I'd been living a lieThey say the truth will set you freeThey lied.The TRUTH resulted in my wife's deathNow I am free from my lieBut I'd never be free of my guiltUntil I met HIMSuddenly crunching numbers had lost their appealHe counted more.More than I realisedHe makes me feel aliveBut I'm scared too.. CamI didn't believe in loveI'd spent my life avoiding relationshipsNOT for meThere was no such thing as: The One.He was only meant to balance my booksNot rock my worldFor the first time I wanted moreWith HIMI was in charge, in control alwaysI felt needy, yet aliveMore alive than ever beforeThat was a first.