Roberta Halpern

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The Second Arrow, Grief After Suicide Loss-A Memoir

I hate you, Mom." There It was-in her daughter's journal, written the night she took her life. The detective told her it was part of the "suicide note."  Roberta opens the journal, then closes it, unable to process this enormous loss. "Suicide notes are overrated, " she tells us. What do you do when a loved one dies by suicide? How do you cope when there is unfinished business and they go out angry-angry at you? She had already lost one child, Lisa, 17 years before, in a  car accident.
There was no guilt there-just sadness, immense sadness.   But, suicide? Suicide is different-complicated, with many conflicting feelings. And the relationship with her older daughter had been rocky, as Suzanne struggled with addictions for many years. It was easier to forgive Suzanne, but not herself. She was the mother and should have done more. Over time, guilt takes its toll on Roberta physically and emotionally.
She comes to realize that ultimately, she must make a decision to release herself from this life sentence. It doesn't happen overnight. Along the way are adventures with ups and downs. In the middle of everything, comes the pandemic and more layers of stress that she must navigate.   This is a heart-felt story of a mother coming to terms with the reality of her daughter's struggles, as she finds her way to mercy and self-forgiveness.  And in doing so, she creates a new relationship with her daughter, one that brings lightness, sweet remembrances, and a new way to live with loss.       
I hate you, Mom." There It was-in her daughter's journal, written the night she took her life. The detective told her it was part of the "suicide note."  Roberta opens the journal, then closes it, unable to process this enormous loss. "Suicide notes are overrated, " she tells us. What do you do when a loved one dies by suicide? How do you cope when there is unfinished business and they go out angry-angry at you? She had already lost one child, Lisa, 17 years before, in a  car accident.
There was no guilt there-just sadness, immense sadness.   But, suicide? Suicide is different-complicated, with many conflicting feelings. And the relationship with her older daughter had been rocky, as Suzanne struggled with addictions for many years. It was easier to forgive Suzanne, but not herself. She was the mother and should have done more. Over time, guilt takes its toll on Roberta physically and emotionally.
She comes to realize that ultimately, she must make a decision to release herself from this life sentence. It doesn't happen overnight. Along the way are adventures with ups and downs. In the middle of everything, comes the pandemic and more layers of stress that she must navigate.   This is a heart-felt story of a mother coming to terms with the reality of her daughter's struggles, as she finds her way to mercy and self-forgiveness.  And in doing so, she creates a new relationship with her daughter, one that brings lightness, sweet remembrances, and a new way to live with loss.       
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